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What If?
04:48
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What if I could just believe that I am your child and have nothing to prove?
What if I could just believe that I am accepted and I do belong here with you?
I belong….in Your arms.
I’m at home…in Your love.
(Mi alma tiene un lugar en Tu amor.
Mi alma encuentra su hogar en Tu amor.)
What if I could just receive the grace that You offer so freely to me?
What if I could just receive the smile of a Father delighted to be here with me?
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2. |
Better By Far
04:24
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There’s a part of me resisting rest and sleep
And clinging to illusions of control.
There’s a part of me that struggles just to breathe
And thinks I have to save my own damned soul
There’s a part of me that knows
That I’m better off alone
There’s a part of me that knows better.
To be with You- forever with You
Is better by far…it’s better by far!
To be with You- forever with You
Is better by far!
Somewhere deep inside I try my best to find
My value in the things that I have done
Somewhere deep inside, it’s easier to hide
Than take the risk of being known and loved.
Your nearness is to me my very good. (4x)
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3. |
Part of My Heart
03:54
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Part of my heart is longing to be anywhere but here.
Part of my heart can’t stand the thought of leaving.
Part of my heart is shackled to the walls of doubt and fear.
Part of my heart will always be believing.
All of my heart is yearning to trust
All of my heart is learning to trust You.
Part of my heart is longing for a place to stop and rest
Part of my heart is scared of what I’ll find there.
Part of my heart is trapped inside the prison of my past
Part of my heart dreams of a different future
Complication is not disintegration. (4x)
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4. |
Worth It
05:14
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You’ve got anger that you need to rage.
You’ve got battles that you need to wage now.
You need to wage now.
You’ve got darkness that you need to enter.
You’ve got parts of yourself you’ve marginalized that you need to center.
You need to center.
It may take some time. (But, I am here.) It may take some time…
You’re worth it. You’re worth it.
You’re worth it…so worth it!
You’ve got losses that you haven’t grieved.
You’ve got traumas that need some space to breathe. (Heal)
You need some space to breathe.
Take your time.
Feel your pain.
Speak your mind.
Claim your space.
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5. |
Slow Down
03:44
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Breath-taking beauty
Effortless harmony
Whispering to me
An invitation
Colors and patterns
Remind me what matters
Delighted laughter
An invitation
(to) slow… slow… down.
Heart-breaking pain
Neurons aflame
Blistering my brain
With an invitation
Breath-taking agony
Blood cells in mutiny
Bringing me to my knees
With an invitation
To slow...slow down.
Slow...slow down.
(Instrumental)
What will my RSVP be? (2x)
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6. |
Change Your Mind
04:02
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Does what I want make a difference to you?
Does what I feel matter anyway?
Does what I want make a difference to you?
Does what I feel matter anyway?
Is there something I could do? Is there something I could say
To change your mind?
Is there something I could sacrifice, something I could pray
That would change your mind?
Is there something I could do? Is there something I could say
To change your mind?
Will you do just what you want? Will you do it anyway?
Does what I like make a difference to you?
Does what I need matter anyway?
Does what I like make a difference to you?
Does what I need matter anyway?
Is there something I could do? Is there something I could say
To change your mind?
Is there something I could sacrifice, something I could pray
That would change your mind?
Will you do just what you want? Will you do it anyway?
Or could I change your mind?
Am I worth enough to you that you'd stop and think it through?
If I cry hard enough? If I try hard enough?
Is there something I could do? Is there something I could say
To change your mind?
Is there something I could sacrifice, something I could pray
That would change your mind?
Will you do just what you want? Will you do it anyway?
Or could I change your mind?
Am I worth enough to you that you'd stop and think it through?
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7. |
Illusion
03:30
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What if the me that you see is just a figment of a wild imagination?
What if the me that you see is who you need me to be?
What if the me that you see is nothing more than mere survival adaptation?
What if the me that you see isn’t me at all?
What if you fell in love with an illusion?
What if you’re still in love with an illusion?
What if what you think is real is just a product of a tragic misconception?
What if what you think is real is your rendition of truth?
What if what you think is real is nothing more than just your prejudiced perception?
What if what you think is real isn’t real at all?
What if you fell in love with an illusion?
What if you’re still in love with an illusion?
Is it possible for you to love me as I am?
Is it possible for you to love me as you truly are?
Is it possible that I could love you as I am?
Is it possible that I could love you as you truly are?
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Just an hour to pack my bags
I don’t know if I’ll ever be back again
I’ll never be back again.
I stuff my life in my suitcase now
It’s not a matter of if but how and when is now and now is way too fast
Turn off the lights and close the door.
No time to grieve for what is suddenly no more!
This is not how I want to say goodbye. I have no choice but to go.
This is not how I want to say goodbye.
I know I’m the one who’s leaving but somehow I still feel abandoned.
I’m all alone in a foreign place
The phone rings with a message from far away
I’ll never see you again.
Cancer curses the family
It’s not a matter of if but how and when is now and now is way too soon
And I’m not there beside your bed
I’m stuck a thousand miles away inside my head.
This is not how I want to say goodbye. You have no choice but to go.
This is not how I want to say goodbye.
I know you don’t want to leave me, but somehow I still feel…
I know you don’t want to leave me, but somehow I still feel…abandoned.
Somehow I still feel abandoned.
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9. |
My Very Own Tears
05:55
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I have wept for the broken-hearted
Spilling tears for those who had none for themselves.
I have cried for the long-forgotten
And now I realize, I’ve long forgotten myself.
Now it seems I need to walk a mile or maybe two
Yes, it seems I need to walk a mile in my own shoes.
This is my story. This is my song.
Here is the pain that I have carried for my whole life long.
These are my questions. These are my fears.
I’m finally taking time to cry my very own tears.
I’ve held space for a thousand strangers
Entered in to others’ complex realities
I told myself I could wait ’til later
But later never came and I never found the space for me.
Now it seems I need to walk a mile or maybe two
Yes, it seems I need to walk a mile in my own shoes.
This is my story. This is my song.
Here is the pain that I have carried for my whole life long.
These are my questions. These are my fears.
I’m finally taking time to cry my very own tears.
Why don’t I know how to love myself as I have loved my neighbor?
This is my story. This is my song.
This is the pain that I have carried for my whole life long.
These are my questions. These are my fears.
I’m finally taking time to cry
I’m living my story. I’m singing my song.
I’m grieving the pain that I have carried for my whole life long.
I’m asking my questions. I’m facing my fears.
I’m finally taking time to cry my very own tears.
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10. |
My Awakened Heart
06:33
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Is this coma shame-induced or is there something else
That renders me unconscious to myself?
Is this coma all there is, or is there something more
Than anesthetic quenching of my spirit and soul?
For so long, I’ve slumbered peacefully…
Then, suddenly…
Is this pain or is this love that’s pounding in my chest
And prying my heart open to desire and distress?
Is this pain or is this love that’s rousing me from sleep
And opening my eyes to what has been and what will be?
I can not unsee what I have seen.
I can not un-know what I now know.
I will not slip back into an old familiar dark.
I will not betray my awakened heart.
My awakened heart…
Love is closer than the sweat upon my skin, she embraces my reality and draws me deeper in. Love is disorienting me.
Love is nearer than I ever knew before. He’s embedded in my anger and my fight for something more. Love is disorienting me.
Love is deeper than I ever dared to dream. He's holding space for all my feelings, unafraid of my extremes. Love is disorienting me.
Love is stronger than I’ve ever realized. She’s unthreatened by my questions and the hatred in my eyes. Love is re-orienting me.
I can not unsee what I have seen.
I can not un-know what I now know.
I will not slip back into an old familiar dark.
I will not betray my awakened heart.
My awakened heart…
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11. |
Beyond/Más Allá
03:54
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Somewhere past the end of my experience,
Past the tattered fringe of what’s familiar, You are…
Más allá de mi pasado.
Outside of the scope of my perceptions,
Well outside the realm of my convictions, You are…
Más allá de mi pasado.
Beyond these walls I’ve built to keep you out,
This barbwire fence policed by fear and doubt,
Beyond the edge of everything I’ve ever known
Your love beckons me beyond, You beckon me beyond my borders. (2x)
Somewhere past the brink of what’s becoming,
On the other side of desperate longing, You are…
Más allá de mi futuro.
Over and above my limitations,
Further than my wild imaginations, You are…
Más allá de mi futuro.
Beyond these walls I’ve built to keep you out,
This barbwire fence policed by fear and doubt,
Beyond the edge of everything I’ve ever known
Your love beckons me beyond, You beckon me beyond my borders. (2x)
Jesus, You are with me. Even to the ends of the earth.
Jesus, You are with me to the very end of the age.
Your love beckons me beyond, You beckon me beyond my borders. (2x)
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Josh Davis Clarkston, Georgia
I am a singer, songwriter, creative, pastor...I share freely from my soul in hopes to stir yours.
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